THINKING LITTLE BEFORE NEW YEAR COMING

2009
What will I do in the New Year? I am thinking and I couldn’t plan anything. I still don’t find the significance of my life. Certificates and higher studying are not my aim, but I remain to follow them to kill my free time. I am very afraid that I am useless if I don’t continue more and more. The next generation is very intelligent and dynamic. I don’t want to repeat my parents’ trail. I still work as an accountant although I tried changing my career goal. I failed to change my working field in 2008. I don’t know what my job will be next year. Accounting, banking or security field. Hic hic, a mess.

I happened to find the surname of Thanh Giang. It was really a funny fact. I have thought his surname was Nguyen, like Nguyen Dinh Hoang, his brother for a long time. Frankly, his surname is Doan. I also knew that he still have practiced Vovinam. I really admired him. He is so patient that he still plays Vovinam. May I practice Vovinam again to recall old precious memories? I will be hurt myself when I try to stir all memories which slept peaceful from year to year. He is really good. He becomes a technical teacher. It seems that he just teaches only one class. I don’t know why I still like to search some information about him in internet. He maybe is the person who I cannot reach or approach near. I am care of what I want. I usually think pell-mell and talk with him, try to live meaningfully. I don’t know what I do if he stand in front of me. Perhaps I will smile gently to show a dimple. Then we will fight again like before

I and Sura connected again and lose in touch once time. I don’t understand why we stopped chatting. Perhaps I was too stubborn to explain anything. I felt offensive what he said to and just knew that not chatting was the best way for us. Should I find new chatters in 2009?

Ms. Thuan in Australia sometimes send emails to me. It is a pity not to have a friend like her beside. Anyways, persons should be selfish, should think to their own life, hope, goal first than another’s. It is miserable to manage to survive in this life. We are enough lucky to have close friends and relatives by our side.

I don’t keep in touch with Giang in Singapore. I hope he will study well. I didn’t have more time to understand him. It is a pity that we didn’t remain friendship. Like his words before, the moon becomes round and crescent later, water-ferns gather and extend again, flowers bloom and fade after that, and people are close to each other and then separate (trăng tròn trăng lại khuyết, bèo hợp bèo lại tan, hoa nở hoa lại tàn, người gần nhau rồi lại chia ly)